**I’m venting here, if you don’t want to read, then carry on!**

 

I’m quite frustrated. I hope it’s just today, i don’t know.

I worked my butt off in LPN School, graduated on Honor Roll, passed LPN Boards on the first attempt, and what do i have to show for it right now?! NOTHING! I’ve been on 3 job interviews and i’ve got nothing.  They want you to have experience…. but how does one get job experience without A FREAKING JOB?!?

And the whole nursing shortage?! it’s a shortage!!! So shouldn’t you people being hiring?

I’ve thought about what i would do job wise if i didn’t get a nursing job… I HAVE NO IDEA! All i’ve thought about and wanted to do is to be a nurse.  I want to work with people, help make people’s lives better, be passionate and caring, and love life.  I mean is that too much to ask for?  Is there even a job where i can do that?  I’d love to have a job where i could just be me, completely me, 150% of the time!

I don’t have experience out side of working as a Medical Assistant and the past few months as an LPN. Getting a job, much less a part-time job, would be pretty difficult.

 

 

I’m frustrated with where my health and weight loss is. I tweeted to Tara and Paula tonight– “well i’ll be honest i’m NOT working hard, I’m just not. I’ve lost my uuumpfh and my motivation!”

Tara said, “Eff motivation. Mine left 15 months ago…DETERMINATION is what I rely on. It never leaves.”

–> Homegirl is RIGHT! It’s about being determined and working your ass off. At the moment, i’ve seem to have lost my determination.

I have dreams of reaching my goal, happy weight and being done, and “crossing that finish line” even though it won’t actually be finished, it’s a lifetime thing sista.

My problem is i have difficulty getting from here to there.  I need to figure out a plan. How am i going to get to goal/happy weight? What am i going to do?

I’ve got to do something. I think or i’m pretty sure Weight Watchers will work for me. I need to just give it my all and try my best.  I KNOW that this overweight and sluggish girl is NOT who i’m meant to be.  I was meant and created and destined for greater things.

I’ll be honest somedays i wish i really do that when i wake up in the morning, the weight loss fairy came during the night and zapped the 130 pounds that i need to lose away!  But then i snap back, and realize that that’s not realistic and that’s not going to happen; as much as i would LOVE for it to!

 

Phewwww. Enough ranting for one night. Just need to get it out.

Thanks for reading, being a follower, and BEING YOU!

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