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I’m taking part in the Sisterhood challenge Spring into Action!

My awesome partner is Sam.  She is an amazing friend, woman, girlfriend, person, and i can’t wait to meet her in person someday! Love that chica!

Today we check in. Report our weight: Which is okay but not exactly where i want it to be! So i’m keeping it a secret for right now!

Here are my goals for this challenge:

(1) Weight Loss: 10 pounds. I definitely think losing 10 pounds is doable and something that i can and will achieve!

(2) To be able to do 100 pounds in 6 weeks! I can already do 8 lady push-ups, so that’s a start! Super excited for this!

(3) I’ve really been focusing on taking weight loss and getting healthy one day at a time. It keep me from getting burnt out and overwhelmed! I will continue to do so for this challenge.

(4) I’m also working on make better healthier and food choices, exercising more consistently now that i’m not training for a race, and working on the binge and emotional eating.

I can totally rock this challenge and i will!  I can’t wait to be a Weight Watchers success story!

I think about this moment and it keeps me focused!

PS: if you haven’t yet, you should consider helping me get to #Fitbloggin Conference! Check out my post here (http://www.lessbrittmorelife.com/2011/02/fitbloggin-or-bust/ )!

I’ve been seeing the ABC’s blog game going around, so i thought i was time i jumped in on the fun!

A. Age: 24, turning 25 in 11 days! AHHHHH!

B. Bed size: Twin pillow top. I would love a full or queen, someday! But it would take up so much space for the rest of my stuff!

C. Chore you dislike: Dishes. I’m a messy cook and use too many dishes/pans.  Oh and dusting, yuckkkk. Does horrible things for my allergies!

D. Dogs: I don’t have any of my own, but i want a pug soooo bad!

soooo cute!

E. Essential start to your day: Snooze or moan about getting up. Some days i hit the snooze, some days i just right out of bed. Quite strange!

F. Favorite Color: I have a few– red, purple, green, blue. It just depends, yo.

G. Gold or silver: Silver.

H. Height: 5’5-3/4″

I. Instruments you play: None at the moment, i really want to learn the guitar, but i love love love to sing!

J. Job title: recent graduate in Licensed Practical Nursing, awaiting to take boards and then get my license! Yay for Nurses!

awesome, just awesomesauce.

K. Kids: None right now. Maybe someday

L. Live: South Louisiana currently, moving to Austin, Texas within the next month or two!!!!!

M. Mom’s name: Valerie… but i call her Mom!

N. Nicknames: Britt, Brit, Brittio, Bstar, BB, sugar thang.

O. Overnight Hospital Stays: None that i recall. But i was in the hospital / clinic a few times: When i was 4 i was playin on the playground and cracked my chin open, had have 9 stitches. When i was 10, i was playing at my grandparents house, and sat on a big pair of scissors!!! And they went up my leg, i have a scar about 1.5 inches long.  It’s a great story to tell

I’ve also gotten hurt a few times, snow skiing. One time i accidentally skied into a tree, i mean come on i was trying to stop!

P. Pet peeves: The way some people sound when they chew their food!  Being lateness.  I’d rather be an hour early than 5 minutes late.

Q. Quote from a movie:

Let’s go get the shit kicked out of us by love. — Sam, in Love Actually

I feel it in my fingers,
I feel it in my toes,
Christmas is all around me,
and so the feeling grows – Christmas is all around us, Billy Mack in Love Actually

 

R. Righty or lefty: Righty.

S. Siblings: 2 older sisters, twins, 27.

T. Time you wake up: Lately it’s been ridiculously crazy.

U. Underwear: Uh, yes i wear them and they’re awesome.

V. Vegetables you don’t’ like: Cauliflower. We learned about an STD in nursing school that looks like cauliflowers, so i won’t eat them! Cabbage by itself. I’m liking vegetables a lot more than i did before!

W. What makes you run late: traffic, friends.  But i’m 99% hardly ever late.

X. X-rays you’ve had: For my chin, when i messed up my knees skiing.

Y. Yummy food you make: My grandmother’s 4 layer cake, hummus, anything with chocolate.

Z. Zoo animal favorites: Tigers, Bears, Elephants, Cheetahs, Monkey, Chimpanzees, i love the zoo!

I love things like this one– so fun! Tell me one story or tale of fact no one else knows!!!

I don’t even know where to start or what to say.  So i’ve been wanting to do a post like this for such a long time, but i’ve kept putting it off. I kept telling myself I have much more exciting things to talk about that emotional eating and binging. Let me tell you, writing about training, moving, graduating, and Austin Half-marathon is way more exciting than emotional eating!

Let’s be honest, we’d much rather read about exciting posts with fun, happy, love-able pictures. This post won’t be one of those!

To be honest, I feel rather sick right now. I did so well the past few days in Austin. I feel so much more at people and free in Austin! I don’t feel so constricted with my emotional eating.   That’s one of the reasons why i’m looking so forward to live in Austin! I know that i will be more encouraged to work on my weight issues, exercise, make better choices in a new place; one that is way more active!

I’ve been eating emotionally for a long, long time. I remember it starting when i was about 10 or so. My parents were divorced, and when i would get scared, sad, angry, happy, upset, lonely, numb– i would start to eat and the eating just kept on happening. I remember in 4th or 5th grade– getting in trouble at home, they had found bags of cookies and oreos that i had secretly eaten in my room under my bed.  I remember having to sneak eat foods. I don’t really remember WHY it started, but it did.  And it kept on happening. Then came middle school– i went to an all girls school. THAT WAS HORRRRRRIBLE. I remember coming home crying. I was made fun of alot, because i was bigger and fatter than all the other girls. They thought it was perfectly okay to pick on me and make me feel horrible about myself. So home i came crying, and then i would eat whatever i could find. In 8th grade, things got a little better. I was still made fun of, don’t get me wrong. But i started swimming for a year round swim team. It gave me an avenue, to do something with my emotions. So they weren’t just sitting there waiting to be eaten up. I swam for 3.5 years. It was great, i won a few awards. But i was still the overweight swimmer. And i still emotionally ate. I started going to therapy, and that seemed to help having someone to talk to.

In 11th grade, i quit the swim team. My heart just wasn’t in it anymore. I maintained that weight for about a year, and slowly started gaining weight from senior year of high school until last year. I gained 120 pounds in 8 years. During those 8 years, i gained it, lost a little bit on Weight Watchers, quit, gained it back, tried another weight loss program, quit, gained, etc.

Last year, i had an emotional talk with one of my best friends and another one with my dad. It really made me think about where my life was going. At the time, i was still in nursing school.. I knew i couldn’t be an example or role model to my patients by weighing almost 300 pounds. Something needed to be done. So almost a year later, here we are. I still emotionally eat and binge.

I binged tonight for no reason at all. Just because i was bored and lonely. I mean seriously Brittany come on! You can do better than this. I know that i can. All i know is that i need to take it a day at a time. When i feel the need to binge or emotionally eat, i’ve got to find something else to do. It’s possible to sit here on the computer or study without eating everything away.

I’m now in Weight Watchers– doing it. I’m having such a hard time committing 110%. I have problems bein honest with myself and tracking EVERYTHING that i eat. I only want to track the good things, track those days when i’m being good, and not emotionally eating. I know that i need to push myself, i need to track all of it! The good, the bad the ugly. So right now– that’s what i’m doing. I’m going to track the good, the bad, the ugly. It’s real. This life is real. This is the only life that i have. I want to do it for me. I want to do it for those people who can’t do for themselves. I want to make my life better. I don’t want to be sitting on the side, looking in anymore.

What is your story? Tell me what you’re proud of? Maybe what you’re not proud of? How do you deal with you eat off track? Are you an emotional eater? What do you do when you notice that you’re emotionally eating?

XOXO,

Brittany